Walking against the tide

Ever feel like your walking against the tide? Your pushing thru a crowd that's heading in the opposite direction? I have one area in my life that I've felt like this....no I feel like this! I always have! And that's my weight :( it just doesn't seem right:( Maybe in a previous life I was a skinny pretentious bitch who mocked those who were heavy hmmm more likely a fat pretentious bitch who mocked the thin cuz rounder people were looked at as rich and healthy...maybe during the time of corsets my previous life pulled so tight and got my waist so tiny i used my thin genes up... Or maybe it's New karma?! Have I recently done something? Maybe it's psychological? I've heard that before! Should I find a therapist?! Delve into the inner workings of my flub? Your probably wondering where this is all coming from (or not) so I'll share.. I've been doing yoga (I love it! It's amazing, my body feels tested-in a good way) so this morning I set my alarm for 515 so I could leave by 545 to make my 615 class. It was hard getting out of bed but I know how good it makes me feel so I dug deep pulled out some strength and got my hiney out of bed. At some point I forgot the class was at 615 and thought it was 630 so I left my home at 6 wondering why I had plenty of time to check Facebook and do some dishes.I pulled up to flow yoga studio at 620 thinking 'perfect timing' went up stirs and saw the class already in session. I left, went home, got dressed and took lots of deep breaths. So the good- I could likely go to the 430 class because my amazing husband is so supportive, and I now have an hour to study for my test on Tuesday. But, it still is so frustrating to me that I work so hard and it just doesn't seem to pan out (in this part of my life) thanx guys for listening to my ramble! Have a great day! I'd love to hear feedback feel free to leave a comment or txt/call/email me! :)